Mirror

I heard this song on the radio today and it really hit me.  I have spent a LARGE part of my life pretty convinced that the reflection in the mirror defined who I was.  I can get all self analyzing and pop psychologist and say that I think its because growing up I felt like I wasn't good enough for my dad to love me, and since I had friends--"popular" if you will--, got good grades in school, involved in extra curricular activities and had pretty much everything else on the "good kid" checklist taken care of the only thing my (self conscious) kiddo brain could come up with was that if I was ________ (insert any number of words there, prettier, skinnier, stronger etc) that maybe I'd be good enough for my dad to want to spend time with.
   
Well now that I'm a grown up (I guess being closer to 30 than 25, married with a house and dog means I pretty much have to admit that one now, aw man) I know objectively that my childhood relationship with my dad had nothing to do with me, or my looks or anything else that I had control over and more to do with where he was as a person while I was growing up.  I still have the nagging insecurities though, that when I look in the mirror and don't see the "best" version of myself I allow those negative feelings to creep back in. 

So this song is one that I'm going to put in the iTunes account and pull it out when I need a reminder.  A reminder that I'm not just what looks back in the mirror, I'm more than the sum of my parts.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made and the One who made me, loves me just like I am, inside and out.

"Mirror" (Barlow Girls)

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try

Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes
of He who made me
And to Him I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines me (Yeah)

Who are you tell me
that I'm less than what I should be
Who are you?
Who are you? (Yeah)
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try

You don't define me (You don't define me) [x4]

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be
Who are you?
Who are you?
Yeah!
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try
Yeah

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be
Who are you?
Who are you?
Yeah
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try